almost there.

唯一想说的话是为什么我还没有考完？大家都陆陆续续地打包上路了。食堂里的人少了5成。剩下的都像无家可归的人一样可怜地食如嚼蜡。所谓的sophomore slump也将告第一个段落了。

没有新闻。没有新闻。没有新闻。

不想做任何回顾。不喜欢忆苦思甜。也不高兴自欺欺人地感叹能到今天多少多少不易。没有谁比谁更辛苦；没有谁比谁更惬意。如果有，全都是假象。

大家都一样。大家都一样。大家都一样。

同屋在考试前夕看了某本日本小说，其中一个章节叫做all the god's children can dance.让我联想起久远的那支歌，神的孩子都在跳舞。多么欢愉的场景阿。想起起我最近在听得歌，境界可就差多了。。。

she is a maneater, maneater, maneater.

也想说些煽情的话，来纪念即将结束的学期，来纪念无法忘却的记忆，来纪念那些类似于濒临死亡的时刻和已经过去也不再激起任何涟漪的绝望。于是想起那个时候，我给朋友留了一个字条，坐在掉在椅子上那件柔软皮夹克上，用一支不好使得笔写下，

i just had the shittest day in my life...

我留过无数的字条。只记得这个。和反面我画的无数个没有表情的脸。

好在现在还可以心平气和地说。

almost. there.

Now I have to work my ass off!!! omg. I am such a badass this semester. Where is my work ethic?

Sometimes mom would knock my forehead asking, what you have been thinking about?

What I have been thinking about? I dont know!!!

I can foresee myself slaving away in the library from now on. Soon enough everything will be over before I even get a chance to regret and pray for a second chance.

I am not particularly burned out, or have more in my plate than anybody else. I am just confused, and constantly unmotivated. Gotta change that.

Sj